A very late 21 week specialist update...

Tuesday Bobby and I went to my specialist appointment in Atlanta. I had my ultrasound and they measured the cervix like always. And he did an exam like always. I really expected it to be a pretty boring visit. Turns out it wasn't...

He said that in all the times before my cervix has been about 4cm long. Although this time it was still closed, it has shortened slightly, now it's about 3.5cm. He said that it is normal to fluctuate, but he scheduled another appointment the following week (Dec. 26th) to look at it again. If it has shortened anymore then he's going to go ahead and do the cerclage (stitch it up).

Some of you may or may not know that Office Depot is closing 112 stores this year. One of those stores was the Cartersville store. Lately my copy center has been packed with not only regular Staples customers, but now we have all the Office Depot people. Normally I try to sit down between jobs or customers, but now it's damn near impossible. I don't know if that has any affect on my cervix by being constantly on my feet busting my ass all day. I also don't know how it will affect my cervix once there's a stitch in it.

I guess I'll have to ask those questions on Friday when I go in. The thing I fear the most is putting my baby in danger by working. And it doesn't help that they've cut the part timers hours because of the economy sucking a$$. So when we used to have 3 shifts (morning, mid and night), we only have 2 (morning and night). Not to mention I had useless assistant managers who don't like to help when the line is 5 people deep at the counter and I'm getting the "hurry the eff up sighs" from the customers... but of course there's the idiot that keeps asking the same question ten different ways, holding everyone else up.

It's a tough spot for me... do I try to find a different job after the baby's born. Or is the economy still going to continue to spiral and I should be lucky to have a full time job and suck it up? There's people out there that are having everything they own taken away because they don't have any income to pay the bills. They would be chomping at the bit to take my job and not complain one bit. I wish I could just start my own company, be my own boss, work my own hours and do something that I actually like to do.

Anyway, I'm just ranting now because I'm tired... I'll let you all know how the appointment goes on Friday. I hope everyone has a great Christmas!