Bad Dreams...

What is it about the first trimester that makes you have such horrible, or weird dreams? I've heard that it was the hormone level in your body that messes with the imagination, but I could've done with out the one from last night... It was pretty vivid so if you don't want to hear it then I suggest you stop reading. Here it goes:

'I was standing in the shower and all of the sudden I started gushing blood and a few clots were coming out. I decided to gather the clots to take it to the hospital to see if I had just miscarried. While I was cleaning up my stomach started cramping really bad so I sat on the toilet and another clot came out. Except this time it was about the size of my thumb and you could tell it was the baby. It had arms and legs and facial features. So I started crying and called my mom to come over because I lost the baby. She came over with a shoe box that was lined with some cloth and she said we should go bury it. So we took it out behind mom's house and dug a hole in the backyard in front of a tree and buried. I was crying the entire time and mom kept telling me that it was going to be ok and that I could try again. That was the end.'

So if I wasn't afraid enough already, I definately am now. I really just want it to be Wednesday so I can go to the doctor and see my little one in there and know that nothing is wrong. Another thing that kinda freaks me out is that my morning sickness has disappeared. I'm not completely going crazy yet because I haven't had any bleeding lately, but I'm just so afraid that we're going to go in there on Wednesday and there's not going to be a heartbeat. I know it all sounds paranoid but when you've been through what I have, you know that things can go wrong in a very short amount of time.

Please just let everything be ok...